Our Beautiful Horses!

They come and they stay

Sometimes they remain in a way which touches our hearts and opens a new path.

Yet how often do we ask how they feel about the roles they play?

Is there a way for us to go deeper? To BE deeper for them?

To know how their inner worlds work.

How their life outside the saddle fits into perfect harmony with the sanctuary of our shared hearts?

Over time there has been a surrendering, a fore going of their independence so that we may live together.

With more time we will reach a rememberance of how in our ‘difference’ there is unity.

A merging of intention, of wellness and peace to co-create with the other’s fate in mind!

This is my mission, my calling and vision, to create a world in which the unity we see is the truth we believe about ourselves and our horses

Who share their every breathe on this Earth so that we may come to know more of what it is to be an animal filled with such a strong Spirit.

When there is a way there is a tunnel which funnels underneath the surface structures we keep so preciously present

As though there can be no tenant without them!

What if the way was different and our urge to connect came forth to express our truth of the matter

Which is that when we choose to shatter our paradigm of seeing we can start believing in the new and the now

The depth and joy of the days we allow ourselves to fill up with connection and play.

Oh how I love the first morning break of the sun as it shines upon the faces of my Divine family – the working horses on this planet are giving so much! Over stumbling rocks they tremble and push as they submiss to the wills of man’s handling skills all in an effort to live and they continue to give!

Are we and our animals the same?

Are we each our own mirror of wonder

To keep searching in for a way under and through the outdated?

Where we ourselves can then become un-gated and free to live from the heart once more, a home coming of familiarity is re-born.

That sacred ground where Horse and Human are both found, living together in harmony and FULL recognition of the Spirit in the ‘other’.

The mirror becomes the Great Mother’s way of showing that unconditional love is not as tough as we may have thought but actually gives life to form.

How can we find more space in our two Soul’s Grace?

Can there be a new way for us to integrate and have more faith in the other?

To listen

To trust

To go deep and start shifting the pain and the grief?

To weep in the light of a new dawn and open wide to the reality of what can be born?

As our horses have spent generations giving

Let us invest the time and have faith

Even for a moment a day

To give to them from our Heart.

From the space which houses our infinity

……..and where Love is the creator’s hand.

The Light in our Freedom

As my time with the animals in my life has developed, along with own personal consciousness we have arrived at a rather lovely scenario of shared intention.

Every day when I leave the horses for the evening I ask myself ‘ How do I want the horses to feel? ‘

The answer to this question has, like all things, evolved. However for the past few months the answer is always the same – I want my horses to feel –

‘Unconditionally Loved. With the highest possible outcome in mind, may they feel that they are capable of achieving whatever their Heart’s Desire is. Held in a space of absolute potential and Divine Love.’

This may sounds strange to some. The horse’s ‘Heart’s Desire’, but I believe that all beings are on a trajectory of intentional creation. Whether that is on an energetic or physical level. All beings have an emotive transparency which they emit constantly, how much we are aware of this is the question I have asked myself MANY times. ‘How much am I listening?’ ‘How can I hear more clearly the voice of this Heart space between us.’

Thus the intentional light I choose to hold my horses in is one of expansion and of unfolding into their Heart’s Desires. My duty is to show up for them in a way which translates desire to outcome if needs be.

Now from the perspective of all things being One there is of course an intertwining with my own sense of feeling free. The intention for my horses stems from one of my deepest intentions for myself. To feel completely unbound by pressure and to roam inside the present moment with my sense of self wholly celebrated.

Many times I have felt the wires of my own integrity cross with those of our cultural belief systems. Seeking something which my mind told me was outside the ‘norm’. Holding myself back because of a generic idea of what ‘being acceptable’ is. The shift came the moment I saw I was the one applying pressure as much as I was the one feeling pressurized. There was no visible or attainable external force, it was a battle waged on the inside. Slowly I began to unravel the chains of expectation I had created as a byproduct of societal structure. I began feeling into the new world of being present with ME rather than chasing an unattainable ‘idea’ which morphs out of view as soon as you come close. The ultimate mirage.

Being able to be WHOEVER WE WANT TO BE. This is freedom for me. Not the action itself but the FEELING. Because once we are in that state the action of genuine authentic speech, thoughts and connection become second nature. Condition free.

Being whoever I want to be – what does this look like? If I was to explain it to someone who may have a completely different sense for what that is what would I say?

Feeling free means that ALWAYS, under ALL circumstances, with ALL people, things and in all places – putting your own truth first, and arriving at a place where this is your HIGHEST option taken. Where YOUR voice matters because you have come to terms with what it sounds like. Where who you actually ARE in that moment is far more important than anything else.

There are many different roads you can take towards living in your Heart as a dedication to loving yourself more. Whether it is freedom, raising your voice, being seen, being heard, attending to your world with humility, unbinding yourself from the past to live more fully in bond with the NOW, the path itself will ultimately create a MUCH deeper sense of recognising who you are.

As I sit here in deep reflection upon the intricate web of life and all things included, I set my intention for the day:

‘That the highest possible option may come to pass for all beings, and may the unity of our hearts ring true with what freedom looks like on an individual and collective level.’

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What is TRUE unity?

True unity is the product of absolute validation of all of the individual differences between us, as each piece of a puzzle has to be a certain shape in order to connect with the other pieces around it to create ‘the whole’. As are we. When we stand in our truth and validate who we are in our uniqueness we actually see that this individuation is part of what MAKES us that already perfect fit. When we begin to create a sense of peace with our choices, our voices and our ‘way’, we can also acknowledge and be grateful for the way of others, CARE about the way of others, and ultimately help paint a new state of self-recognition, thus encompassing a larger whole through the perspective of the One part.

Horses, the light and my intentions for all

Every time I go to see the horses I feel happy, every single time my heart feels different, she feels like she is awoken and will remain that way, every time I am outside here on the land and walking I feel full of joy. Every time I see the horses I feel full of joy. Every time I am around horses I am full of joy! So basically I need to do anything I can to make sure I spend my time around as many horses as possible, sharing love. Especially my own horses as we have spent years together building bond after bond. There is something inside my horses which is helping me see this, and I get to acknowledge it fully. There is something inside me being with my horses. There is something inside this. A big beautiful Heart Full thing 🙂
Thank you Florenzo
Thank you Olympia
Thank you Latina
Thank you Toby
I am so so so grateful!!
And so I am grateful, in this world of illusory visions I see exactly what I am determined to. Spiraling through the myriads and dreams always meeting myself again in the very moment I lost who I was that time, this time any time which comes forward and embraces me is the time which is right for my evolution.
The New Earth is our Earth, it is our way, our now our forever, it is our gift to each other. Our new Earth is our gift to each other. Our foresight into the delights of the feast we call acceptance, always feeding, always giving always riding the wave until the fall becomes part of the rising again. Come out of my brain and experience a whole new world in the heart of my matter. Come out of the heart and witness the whole new world in the way of my entirety, come up and dive outwards, expand in your explosive self, live your dreams, be your dreams, accumulate who you are again and again, just be the perfect expression of yourself so that the Divinity within your can meet itself in the All of this world. Tap into your knowing, become who are you which is this and all the rest, tap into your becoming Dilara, tap into your gifts.
What comes up when I write ‘tap into my gifts’ is a sense of just a lack of worth and frustration as though I feel my gifts are very far away, as though they are outside of me and I have to work to be part of their world or to encompass them again. I feel shit about it but it isn’t all encompassing it is subtle, it is a subtle draw of opposites, a polarity within me which I AM overcoming, which I am engaging with.
The process – in a Bashar video I watched last night he talks about the process. About how when we ENJOY the process or surrender to it as ourselves then the faster the process will be because we are using the energy of the process up. Like the force of a wave which comes in and then disperses, it is all the forces around the force itself which help that become part of what is and have a totally natural rhythm.
How shall this next road be unveiled? Shall I dive deep into the mystical simplicities of my being or shall I remain? Remaining even so I would be diving deep because I am always in a state of constant change, I feel the flux, the ebb and the flow of this personal development roar around me and settle silently with peace and stillness into my hollow below so that I am once again filled with the light of dawn and the blessed quiet of my one truth which is my passion my excitement my glory and my beholding of this in all other beings, I am one with them and they are one with me. I listen I unfold.
Intentions:
To connect with my hybrid family
To connect with my guardian angels, my guides, the benevolent spirits who support me ALL the time!!
To have crystal clear communication with the horses so that we might better share and spread the light amongst the world here if they feel called to as well.
To have an inter dimensional experience DEEP within my own being.
To step inside the truth of who I am and create a world which encompasses loving actions and a very high state of being for ALL.
I want to create a whole new world, one encompassed with colour and life, with laughter and joy for all. One in which ALL EVERY SINGLE animal on the planet is communicated with from the heart, and seen as a total equal. I want to create a world in which we are all one, we are all seen as pure light beings and as dancers of the new fantastic age of deliverance of light.
This is my Heart’s Desire.

Temple of Light

This morning, actually just moment ago whilst sitting in meditation here in London in my Mother’s home – As I was drawing energy down from my crown into my lower chakras, I felt a presence near my womb. I saw myself going straight into her existence and what I saw was a huge, massive dark space. The infinite. This is what I felt there. In my womb. Inside my body. The infinite. The space which all things or form can be created and also the space where the stillness of our evolution resides. It felt as though nothing was there at all and in that nothingness there was silence and bliss. Then as I moved further down into my Mother Earth’s Heart and back up to my own physical heart I felt and saw and knew that the Temple of Light was in this place. The Temple of Light resides inside my own heart, inside my own heart space. This Temple of Light is within us, we are born of it with it because of it and in delightful revery holding hands with the dancing nature of her being. We are the Temple of Light. As I placed my hands on my heart I verbally gave thanks to my ancestors, guides, spirits, guardian angels, Angels, Ascended Masters and ET Beneolvant beings – inside me I felt a huge pull of emotion from my heart into my higher chakras, a few tears came and I just felt so grateful overall. So so grateful for how much light I have already received and how much light already exists in us ALL. I cannot stipulate this enough – the Temple of Light lives in every single heart on this Earth. In every single mind on this Earth and in every single body. The Temple of Light is you and you are it. So completely one, connected, you are the way and the path. You are all the elects on that path and you are all the elements to come. Truly dear one you are the Light in the sky at night, the power of the Sun and the rays of Golden wisdom from every setting Sun imaginable. You are the tides of the ocean the kissing wind of a winter’s day, your light lives on in every heart you see and meet so PLEASE acknowledge how we can all come to greet in a place of forgiveness and compassion. PLEASE come to see how bright you already are and that all your experiences are guiding you steadily towards the light within. All your experiences are helping you BE more of the light you came to share with the world. This is why in so many spiritual teachings you will here that it is in the BEING – or that by your presence alone you make a difference. This is true and it is BECAUSE you are ALREADY the difference which has been made. We are here in form to share this to see this, to become more of this and all of the tangible events which we create for ourselves are literally helping us see the light again. We came here not knowing so that we can know once again that it is not IN the knowing that we become more of what we want, it is in the recognition of who we actually already ARE. Again and again I have heard this, again and again I have felt this, not in huge bursts but in the subtle presences of guidance through my physical body. Remember me – she seems to say – remember me because inside is the Way, inside is the journey you seek to impart upon. You already are the journey and the journeyer, you actually ARE the destination already, so as we flip into ourselves everyday seeming to move through life in the perfect way all which surrounds us melts away when we enter the Temple of Light and witness the Divinity at play.

In our hearts we are one coming forever undone until nothing is left but the void of our breathe. As one we inhale and caste our design forth to be unveiled. Again and again unravelling in this dance of nothing we are actually creating ourselves in this cutting of cords of abrasions stepping into our power and celebration WE ARE ONE. We are one, we are one.

In this Temple of Light which you enter after a remembrance of how to truly surrender to the Onesness within where all veils are thin, gone entirely and in your wake stands the one who dares simply to BE present in your own awakening. The one who needs nothing but sees how important the missions to keep giving is. We are here to expand to grown and to remember, our Soul’s intwined with the joy of surrender. Each experience valid and totally true for YOU my dear the way can be clear when you learn to just trust that there is a higher point in every choice. We are the unvierse at large and so how can we create a world within us which consist of the o

We are the universe at large so how can we create a world within us where personal choice is the most important point of contact. Where our recognition is our enlightenment, and where there is NOTHING outside of you which holds favour over your capability to be brave enough to take charge of what you see and to CHANGE THE COURSE OF YOUR DESTINY. DO IT NOW and see what happens. Please because every time you decide to take a step towards your own Divinity others being to glow in the choice of your own remembrance.

A Simple Joy

When I look at this picture I see and FEEL totally pure undiluted joy!
What comes into my mind is the question: How can we cultivate more of this raw zest for life and for the wellbeing of others? For the simplicity of nature to the mass of our experiences as we move through our journey of life.
We have all migrated and grown FROM this point, this ‘childlike’ way of being. The power of this ‘in the moment’ heart expression lives in us still, it it harboured in our body’s memory as part of the frame of who we are.

Here, gorgeous Logan shows that it is through the simple art of connecting with the life around us that we can expand into a higher state naturally and easily. Can this ‘simple joy’ be part of our awakening? Part of our ascended state as we move from the perspective of separation to one of real connection?

Can we make more time for this joy to be nurtured again? Yes! Of course we can!
How? By committing to the idea of it!
By placing our full attention into the scope of saying YES to more happiness, more light, more of what you choose to cultivate.

Of course ‘life’ can, at times, get in the way of this. Our challenges – social, personal, emotional, physical and literal are real and do feel extremely palpable. Whether they are present for years or just a moment in time. I also know that it is in the moving into and THROUGH these stages of our lives which makes the difference. The returning to our space within, our still point, our ‘simple joy’.

As the ocean is we are; tidal by nature and force.
Through the potency of our remembering we can ALL see the light around us just as children do, and in surrendering to our full emotional spectrum once again we are letting that spark live on!
Diving into this space allows us to be nourished with an INNER diversity that is raw, real and rooted.

As we begin to live from our true power in this way our spark of coherent creative awareness shines forth and can be seen!

Let this spark live on within you and witness how quickly you can light up the world!!!!

Mabon Ode to Our Mother

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~ For the woman who burns and my sisters who continue to rise ~

We are bounty and bountiful we are beautiful and torn apart. The Soul’s truth was sundered until the meld of our Divine Mother was hear again. Inside us she began to rise, to be born in our surrounding and to sing her cry of presence into the world.

Through that melting crack her magic found its place amongst our faith as the stories which were woven became truths once again chose.

For on our shoulders we took the brunt of the world, carrying the hurt and the pain and the grief of SO many who were too broken to weep.

My family’s scars are etched onto my heart because the destiny of one is the ocean of many, tell me again how are we meat to hold steady? We are not!

For as we crumble and fall there is no shame in loosing it all the will of the one who is being reborn. Our power lives on, our vulnerability is strong and the you in me is forever free as we cradle the world in Her eternity.

When the thought of who you SHOULD be arises, remember that the simplest call of your expression is your willingness to be individual. To shine because yo have a light to turn on and to turn up. Illuminate your Soul through the shadows of tomorrow’s creation, to not stay stationary upon the foundation that was build not by you but by another. Rebuild the will to stand tall inside so that the sky can witness your becoming again, the depth of your song lives on and is heard in every inner ear that is ready to hear the texture of who YOU ARE.

And as the light in us reaches forth testing the water so does our darkness, our unseen support. You are real you are pure you are raw you are true. In all your ways, without any other face than the one your heart shows yo in the mirror of this grace-full place.

Our fragility tells tales of the strength that is to come because Wo(man) – We Are One.

Even thought I directly address the feminine here these words speak to the Divine Feminine Nature in us ALL. Men and Women. For us to truly rise we must first see that the idea of separation is an idea alone and where one idea is born another can take form.

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Mending my relationship with my body

Over time many things have drawn me towards seeking revival in knowledge about my physical body. Through different Craniosacral Trainings, Reiki, Advanced Healing, Shamanic Journeying, and my own deep inner work which I have done for what feels like 13 years, through all of these different modalities and avenues of exploration I feel that my body has had A LOT to say. Some of which I kept hidden away and some I listened to. It’s the listening which holds the healing for me. Truly.

My relationship with my body has always been turbulent, from a very young age I found the act of actually being IN my body challenging, even though from where I am sitting now I can see that it has been a total blessing as I navigated my way through this world it was my body which housed me. It was my body which enabled me to do things like run through the fields towards the horses, ride, jump, climb, swim and sit in my favourite newly found spots upon this Earth.

Sometimes it is very easy to think about where we are right now, what feels right right now and then it is also important to remember a time when we felt very different so that we can bring our consciousness into the unfolding nature of our truth. We are always changing, always playing and merging reforming and moulding again into new ways of being. I have been through this, I know it to be part of MY truth. I want to know what your’s is too.

Our physical bodies are our vessels of light, literally. The photons in our body are emitting light all of the time, the amount of light fluctuates with our energetic metabolism, mood, frequency, thoughts, how well we take care of ourselves etc.

And so we ARE light. Already. What we need to do to make sure we shine is to begin thinking of ways to expand this light. To expand ourselves.

There is healing to be found in the physical body, always. Not only are we carrying the memories of our forefathers and mothers in our DNA but also we have literally chosen our particular physical forms to inhabit for a reason, and this reason is always Love.

The journey of coming back to Loving ourselves on a physical level can be deep and feel long but I PROMISE you the more you curve your focus into expanding your light inwards to discover those nooks and crannies of your bodies make up you will have so many benefits showered upon you!

Poem from my body to my soul ~

In many ways you used to cull me – to cut me off and create havoc in me.

How I used to want to breathe you forward and kiss your face, helping you see that all was well because we are together, because we have created a world within worlds as One.

Remembering yourself was difficult, not because of me but because of We. Our light is bright but no-one could see, how can we help people if we shut off our own precious centre of guidance?

Through sunrise and sunset we gained strength but what of the heart? Our centrepiece. What of the still existence of all things inside this home. We are here as One, we return to One and we are made from One. Come now into the light and be seen again Woman for you are magnificent and you are holy, you are right and you are your own sovereign. Transfer the question of why to the reality of because, because we are here, because we have chosen and because we exist! Exist unto yourself and shine forth in this way so that others can see your face in the heart of all things. Your heart in the words you say, the moves you paint and the dance which echoes again and again through your bones. You are one with the world Dilara. You are one with the light.

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