Falling into Being

Cascading down the line of fine infinite potential we witnessed the harshness and the gentle caress of a storms wings upon our faces. Swirling, curving our way we opened slowly but surely seeing the horizon we have all harboured inside ourselves.

What a taken solace it is to glance upwards and remember who we are. Who each person is and to gain momentum in our perspective of that such thing. When I do my best to look into the fulcrum point of this inner temple, I see one thing. A complete harmonious fluid structure of caring of sharing and of creation. In our creation the light will come forward and save our world that doesn’t need saving. It is us who are the savers and the saved the cautious and the brave the witness and the subject of a continuous unfolding.

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What is Giving?

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There is something happening with the love of the world right now. The other day I wrote about love and how one of the hardest things for me was to actually give love, to get into the energy of giving. It had always been a scary thing for me, to open my heart and just GIVE, freely to those around me. I always pulled back from it with a vengence as though the safest thing on Earth I could do was to cover away, to hide and to not BE in my own giving energy. It would not be true to say that one thing changed this for me, as many tunings have unfolded and I have dived deep into my being more than a few times to really feel into what is happening in there, however there was one DEFINING moment in which I remember very clearly feeling hugely open to the power of giving. Wathcing Bridget Nielsen (whose work I love) speak about the 5^th Dimensional vibration of ‘Service to others’ completely shook up something in me, a subtle yet powerful opening to a world I had avoided for a long time. Giving to others from my heart. It resonated so so deeply.
My sense is that all of the Unconditonal Love in the world lives right inside us, in our hearts, in our beings.
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There seemed to be a restriction inside me which I hadn’t been able to or wanted to shake off, the moment I turned my focus from doing my best to control this feeling to being of service to others everything changed. I felt an instant wave of relief run through me and honestly, my world suddenly made a lot more sense. There is something very powerful happening in my / the world right now which is guiding me forward into a state of absolute giving, in which my heart opens to share it’s light with the whole world. Simply, wholly and also because I KNOW that we all have this love within us so in this way I feel that I am giving and simultaneously sharing the love with every soul on the planet.

And as synchronicity has it’s own art form….this follows……

Yesterday I drove to Glastonbury (Avalon) for the sunrise. Later on in the day I lay on top of the Tor, belly to the Earth and sent my focus inwards. Inside myself and also into the womb of that place. Holding the inner structures of the Tor in my minds eye. I felt my etheric body pulsing with life in partnership with the energy of the Tor and surrounding lands. It was a completely unified wave. As I surrendered into this I was suddenly transported back to a childhood dream – when I was young I would pray every night for the Earth to be protected and for all beings to feel loved. Even from the age of 3 years old this was already hugely important to me and became a very organic expression of my desire to give.

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What I also saw / felt on top the Tor was the truth that ‘All is within us’. The space inside the cells of your body is not ‘empty’! It is our infinite potential. The infinite potential of anything we put our focus onto!
Your awareness is a light, and as you light up the darkness inside – aka – your internal space within, you are lighting up your desires, you are lighting up your very BEING because everything can be seen when we choose to hold it in the light of our awareness.
Whilst in this space I decided to re-birth that childhood intention – I saw all the beings on Earth illuminated in white light, filled with Love, in total knowing of their completeness. I felt a huge shift in my whole body as the energy of this thought rippled through me and out to the world. The emotion which surfaced alongside this was just PURE BLISS. Putting the feeling into words would not work. I cried and cried with gratitude at what an amazing life I have been blessed with.
I realised that this PURE frequency of gratitude is not attached to what you HAVE but is a by-product of who you are becoming, and actually already ARE inside.
It is a vibration which completely bowls me over and humbles me to my core every time.
What I came to terms with from this space was that ‘THIS IS GIVING.’ It is in the giving that we truly receive. My heart’s desire for all beings to feel Unconditionally Loved and filled with light was ignited within my own body as I am also, of course, one of those beings. The world we see around us is a mirror, and what we put out we get back – truly – it is a simple universal truth which is undeniable in it’s raw capacity to help us remember again and again who we truly are.
For me giving is following your heart’s deepest desire, embracing it and then sharing it FULLY and UNAPOLOGETICALLY with the world. In whatever way. There is no formula, there are no rules, this is the truth of who you are and the entire world needs to see it!

The Light in our Freedom

As my time with the animals in my life has developed, along with own personal consciousness we have arrived at a rather lovely scenario of shared intention.

Every day when I leave the horses for the evening I ask myself ‘ How do I want the horses to feel? ‘

The answer to this question has, like all things, evolved. However for the past few months the answer is always the same – I want my horses to feel –

‘Unconditionally Loved. With the highest possible outcome in mind, may they feel that they are capable of achieving whatever their Heart’s Desire is. Held in a space of absolute potential and Divine Love.’

This may sounds strange to some. The horse’s ‘Heart’s Desire’, but I believe that all beings are on a trajectory of intentional creation. Whether that is on an energetic or physical level. All beings have an emotive transparency which they emit constantly, how much we are aware of this is the question I have asked myself MANY times. ‘How much am I listening?’ ‘How can I hear more clearly the voice of this Heart space between us.’

Thus the intentional light I choose to hold my horses in is one of expansion and of unfolding into their Heart’s Desires. My duty is to show up for them in a way which translates desire to outcome if needs be.

Now from the perspective of all things being One there is of course an intertwining with my own sense of feeling free. The intention for my horses stems from one of my deepest intentions for myself. To feel completely unbound by pressure and to roam inside the present moment with my sense of self wholly celebrated.

Many times I have felt the wires of my own integrity cross with those of our cultural belief systems. Seeking something which my mind told me was outside the ‘norm’. Holding myself back because of a generic idea of what ‘being acceptable’ is. The shift came the moment I saw I was the one applying pressure as much as I was the one feeling pressurized. There was no visible or attainable external force, it was a battle waged on the inside. Slowly I began to unravel the chains of expectation I had created as a byproduct of societal structure. I began feeling into the new world of being present with ME rather than chasing an unattainable ‘idea’ which morphs out of view as soon as you come close. The ultimate mirage.

Being able to be WHOEVER WE WANT TO BE. This is freedom for me. Not the action itself but the FEELING. Because once we are in that state the action of genuine authentic speech, thoughts and connection become second nature. Condition free.

Being whoever I want to be – what does this look like? If I was to explain it to someone who may have a completely different sense for what that is what would I say?

Feeling free means that ALWAYS, under ALL circumstances, with ALL people, things and in all places – putting your own truth first, and arriving at a place where this is your HIGHEST option taken. Where YOUR voice matters because you have come to terms with what it sounds like. Where who you actually ARE in that moment is far more important than anything else.

There are many different roads you can take towards living in your Heart as a dedication to loving yourself more. Whether it is freedom, raising your voice, being seen, being heard, attending to your world with humility, unbinding yourself from the past to live more fully in bond with the NOW, the path itself will ultimately create a MUCH deeper sense of recognising who you are.

As I sit here in deep reflection upon the intricate web of life and all things included, I set my intention for the day:

‘That the highest possible option may come to pass for all beings, and may the unity of our hearts ring true with what freedom looks like on an individual and collective level.’

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What is TRUE unity?

True unity is the product of absolute validation of all of the individual differences between us, as each piece of a puzzle has to be a certain shape in order to connect with the other pieces around it to create ‘the whole’. As are we. When we stand in our truth and validate who we are in our uniqueness we actually see that this individuation is part of what MAKES us that already perfect fit. When we begin to create a sense of peace with our choices, our voices and our ‘way’, we can also acknowledge and be grateful for the way of others, CARE about the way of others, and ultimately help paint a new state of self-recognition, thus encompassing a larger whole through the perspective of the One part.

Temple of Light

This morning, actually just moment ago whilst sitting in meditation here in London in my Mother’s home – As I was drawing energy down from my crown into my lower chakras, I felt a presence near my womb. I saw myself going straight into her existence and what I saw was a huge, massive dark space. The infinite. This is what I felt there. In my womb. Inside my body. The infinite. The space which all things or form can be created and also the space where the stillness of our evolution resides. It felt as though nothing was there at all and in that nothingness there was silence and bliss. Then as I moved further down into my Mother Earth’s Heart and back up to my own physical heart I felt and saw and knew that the Temple of Light was in this place. The Temple of Light resides inside my own heart, inside my own heart space. This Temple of Light is within us, we are born of it with it because of it and in delightful revery holding hands with the dancing nature of her being. We are the Temple of Light. As I placed my hands on my heart I verbally gave thanks to my ancestors, guides, spirits, guardian angels, Angels, Ascended Masters and ET Beneolvant beings – inside me I felt a huge pull of emotion from my heart into my higher chakras, a few tears came and I just felt so grateful overall. So so grateful for how much light I have already received and how much light already exists in us ALL. I cannot stipulate this enough – the Temple of Light lives in every single heart on this Earth. In every single mind on this Earth and in every single body. The Temple of Light is you and you are it. So completely one, connected, you are the way and the path. You are all the elects on that path and you are all the elements to come. Truly dear one you are the Light in the sky at night, the power of the Sun and the rays of Golden wisdom from every setting Sun imaginable. You are the tides of the ocean the kissing wind of a winter’s day, your light lives on in every heart you see and meet so PLEASE acknowledge how we can all come to greet in a place of forgiveness and compassion. PLEASE come to see how bright you already are and that all your experiences are guiding you steadily towards the light within. All your experiences are helping you BE more of the light you came to share with the world. This is why in so many spiritual teachings you will here that it is in the BEING – or that by your presence alone you make a difference. This is true and it is BECAUSE you are ALREADY the difference which has been made. We are here in form to share this to see this, to become more of this and all of the tangible events which we create for ourselves are literally helping us see the light again. We came here not knowing so that we can know once again that it is not IN the knowing that we become more of what we want, it is in the recognition of who we actually already ARE. Again and again I have heard this, again and again I have felt this, not in huge bursts but in the subtle presences of guidance through my physical body. Remember me – she seems to say – remember me because inside is the Way, inside is the journey you seek to impart upon. You already are the journey and the journeyer, you actually ARE the destination already, so as we flip into ourselves everyday seeming to move through life in the perfect way all which surrounds us melts away when we enter the Temple of Light and witness the Divinity at play.

In our hearts we are one coming forever undone until nothing is left but the void of our breathe. As one we inhale and caste our design forth to be unveiled. Again and again unravelling in this dance of nothing we are actually creating ourselves in this cutting of cords of abrasions stepping into our power and celebration WE ARE ONE. We are one, we are one.

In this Temple of Light which you enter after a remembrance of how to truly surrender to the Onesness within where all veils are thin, gone entirely and in your wake stands the one who dares simply to BE present in your own awakening. The one who needs nothing but sees how important the missions to keep giving is. We are here to expand to grown and to remember, our Soul’s intwined with the joy of surrender. Each experience valid and totally true for YOU my dear the way can be clear when you learn to just trust that there is a higher point in every choice. We are the unvierse at large and so how can we create a world within us which consist of the o

We are the universe at large so how can we create a world within us where personal choice is the most important point of contact. Where our recognition is our enlightenment, and where there is NOTHING outside of you which holds favour over your capability to be brave enough to take charge of what you see and to CHANGE THE COURSE OF YOUR DESTINY. DO IT NOW and see what happens. Please because every time you decide to take a step towards your own Divinity others being to glow in the choice of your own remembrance.