Become all things as a matter of medicine

These past 10 days have been a real dark night of the soul for me. Cascading through fits of fear I had not realsed were possible for me to handle. Breaking boundaries of what I perceive to be ‘real’ and leaping into new realms.

There really is no limit to this type of personal unfolding. Something I said to a friend of mine last night was that I feel there is no beginning and no end to the recognition of who we are. It is boundless, literally. I mean this in the most productive way that I can mean it. Our Unconscious mind will only present information and / or experience to us when we are ready to receive and process it, allowing integration to actually be a very kind (albeit totally shattering at times) way of becoming (or feeling) more whole. Five years ago I chose to dive straight down and deep into my own inner shadow; with the intention to know myself at a deeper level. The journey has been as harrowing as it has been awakening, today I sit writing these words as a completely different person. So many nuances, habits, beliefs, perceptions, choices, overall energetic patterns, and even physical alignments have shifted, because of my choice to show up more fully on this planet. I behave differently because I now function from an evolving perspective of what Love is and WHO I am. Even right in the midst of unfurling fear I still somehow KNOW I have a choice. The truth is present there, I see that there is no separation between what I am going through and the rest of the world around me. How any suffering I experience is also the suffering of the world, any joy I experience is also the joy of the world. We are ALL this way! Collectively there can be no separation. The sooner and the deeper we all begin to adopt this perspective of Oneness the more we can begin integrating parts of ourselves which NEED to be heard. Diving into my own personal processes helps me connect to others in the best way that I can. Helps me Love others because of the merging of what I am going through! Acknowledging the shadow and the light within ME helps me acknowledge the shadow AND light in the world, in every person, in every animal, in ALL beings. I am not saying it is easy, I am saying that there is beauty in the challenge of coming home again.

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Ultimately my choice is always the same; love, in all it’s different forms.

As I entered what my horses have been calling the ‘Inner Void’ this past week I saw all the things I had not seen, saw all the things I knew were right for me. I know I will succumb again to the calling of my eternal space within. To wake up in that space, where all things are known, unknown, and loved.

I also came to know my body on a deeper level. Came to so many clear understandings of how it helps us heal. In this way these words appeared:

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Recover the ways of your nature, become all things as a matter of medicine.

Your physical body is a gateway, a precipice on which all things are known and unknown. Only the experience that passes through this doorway into the eternal You is what is perceived as truth. For in One breathe you are the edge, the opening and the infinite. Containing it’s own vast consciousness your body shifts frequency based on what you call in in this Conscious and Unconscious way you have.

Our physical bodies house it ALL. Every-Thing. Nothing escapes its knowledge of who you truly are. It is awake to you, it sees you moment by moment in your entirety.

Step inside it now, see for yourself how much has been waiting to dance again.

Every portrait you ever created of who you thought you were is present there……and all the rest.

Bear witness to the power which your body IS. Respect it.. Know that you have chosen it for a reason, all the pain and bliss in the world is felt here. Nowhere else. THROUGH the consciousness of your form you are then less than that as you climb up to emerge through the portal of awakening again.

And in it’s centre….. Space.

Every cell, every particle, every organ…. Space. More space than we can possibly ‘IMAGINE’. This vastness knows only your feeling look.

Lean into it when you can. Lay your head down to rest upon the timelessness of realisation. Surrender into you. ~~

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Nourishment – Look yourself in the Eye –

Remember ~ Any part of you which is creating the frequency of fear through thoughts, feelings, actions or beliefs, conscious or unconscious, known or unknown. Is a part of you calling out for the deepest nourishment. For you to embrace into your expansive awareness the totality of your experience rather than through a segmental perspective. You begin to see very clearly that those parts are part of the greater whole of life. Any energy attachment which creates a ‘reaction’ is difused by the choice to approach your full self with unconditional presence. Aware of the Ego, aware of the Heart, aware of the deepest truth that no one thing is better than the other. This aspect of our enlightenment holds boundless potential for inward and outward compassionate expression.

Rather than thinking this is a part of you to push away instead pull it towards you. Tune your being to remember that ‘This part of me needs the deepest nourishment.’ ‘The deepest love I can give needs to be directed HERE so that anything which belongs to it can be transmuted within the oracle of my awareness.’

The more I practice this in my own life the more I pay witness to the power of ‘letting myself BE’. When self-doubt, fear or judgements pop up I learned to embrace the energy of myself in that moment as an honour of self-expression.

When we stop running away, turn to look ourselves straight in the eye, we see beyond and can behold the heart of the matter. In this manner of self-reflection many things become clear.

Nourish each part of you that needs it.

Recognise where an energy you would usually say ‘no’ to can be brought deep into the totality of who you are.

It is ALL part of your creation of Self.

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Falling into Being

Cascading down the line of fine infinite potential we witnessed the harshness and the gentle caress of a storms wings upon our faces. Swirling, curving our way we opened slowly but surely seeing the horizon we have all harboured inside ourselves.

What a taken solace it is to glance upwards and remember who we are. Who each person is and to gain momentum in our perspective of that such thing. When I do my best to look into the fulcrum point of this inner temple, I see one thing. A complete harmonious fluid structure of caring of sharing and of creation. In our creation the light will come forward and save our world that doesn’t need saving. It is us who are the savers and the saved the cautious and the brave the witness and the subject of a continuous unfolding.

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