When She calls you.

Where do you go when the wind calls you?

I saw a flicker of your presence in the moon light.

Whispers, whispers, whispers.

Many times we stood together, shoulder to shoulder in reverence at the night sky.

Inhale, exhale, breathe in motion as One stroke of life falls into being. How much more of this bliss is there? Will we ever truly know?

As the curve of blue surrounds us, up high in the ocean we turn, flying forward in an open ministry of sound. Dig deeper look further for all things lie unto this place.

Light swims in turn

Dancing dancing showing her skills

When all the waves of time have past what is left?

This dance

I did not know you were her, and I she, and we all things One.

But when the moment of awakening came it was as though it had already been.

As though I knew it, as a beloved kin, saluting me once more. Eternal remembrance.

How much time shall pass. None.

 

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Grids, Horses, Healing.

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Tonight with Oli in the arena she showed me an image of us simply connecting. So I un clicked her leap rope, and went and stood by the fence across the arena from her.

As I knelt down and looked at her I felt the connection clock into place. We were connected in the space between us and inside us both, inside her, inside me. We were one. As I looked at her eyes, her ears, and her body there was a distinct sense of something so much larger than those things. Something so much larger than the US who were standing there. There was a spaceousness in which she was communicating to me from / in. As though she was the space and so was I, so there was no separation between who we were together. At times I lost my focus and responded to certain thoughts flittering through my head. When I was able to regain that feeling of expanse I projected an image of to her of her turning towards me. I wanted this to happen. Perhaps it was because of my wanting that it did not happen.  I know she felt the image, however she did not turn towards me. Why? I don’t know right now. Asking for things rarely get’s me anywhere with Olympia, the majority of the time She is the one who leads. What I do know is that she had a very important message for me. Not just one but many, she had many important messages for me to bare witness to in that timeless place between us. When there is connection with the horses like this it its as though, in the moment I am aware of time but when I write about it afterwards it becomes clear to me that there was no time present there. There was nothing but the connection, the connection is spaceous timelessness. It is incredible really.

Eventually I walked over to Oli. She responded when I put my hand out for her. I felt my personality come back in, my fears, my doubts, my lack of belief in myself (funny because this morning in my meditation I spoke about how I believe in my power, how I believe in my gifts and how I have these gifts in order to help the world). Here though, standing with Oli I felt it all rush in, all the thoughts I have been thinking over the last few days, weeks! All the incongruent happenings inside me which are so completely the opposite to what we had just been experiencing. In that moment I felt two things at the same time – VERY HUMBLED – AND VERY SHITTY. I felt shitty that I was feeling that way and I felt humbled as I stood in what I was aware of as the presence of such a deeply grounding amazing essence that Olympia was giving off. She just stood there. All knowing. Totally still, whilst this inferno was going on inside me. Totally authentic and macrocosmically present / available / watching. It was as though she saw and knew everything, not from the past or future but because she was listening to my Soul Listening to my Heart and being present with it’s unravelling.

I love her for this. How she does it. It’s incredible to me and always a stark realisation against my own, at times, lack of presence for myself, or for those in my life. How she can stand in her own vibration in to such a degree moves something in me. While I was experiencing all of this I felt a deep rising sensation in my head, in my Third Eye Chakra, Crown and Throat. As though I was being suffocated. I realised that this is what I feel like when I am out of balance, and too much in my mind. This is what it feels like for me. What we had experienced together was spaceousness, what this was was like a crammed and full room. It was a stark contrast indeed.

She simply stood there looking at me. She did not move a muscle. Her eye saying everything she needed to communicate. Which was that we were still One, she was helping me feel into the different states of being one can experience throughout the day. All the infinite moments we are ‘awakening’, how asleep we can feel and how alive we can feel. She was helping me feel this because she knew that this is something I needed to see. I cried then, placing my hands on my heart I simply stood there and cried, allowing the emotion to run through me, over me, as she stood patiently holding space for it to unfurl. There was no-where to go and nothing different to be, do or say. She simply held space and watched, like an eternal Mother as I stepping into a fractal of my emotional self needing to be seen at that time, and actually for a while now. When the wave had subsided I still felt heady yet the energy which had been there before had was now changed. We were still One, in a new world again, every moment is like this with her.

After asking her if there was anything else she wanted to say / do / be, and receiving a ‘no’  we went back to the barn where the other horses were waiting.

She is so profound, this mare who sees all, constantly knowing where to place her Heart’s hand onto me, helping, guiding, translating aspects of the world my human perspective does not take in at times.

Olympia is the perfect combination of intensely aloof and infitely loving. So whenever she signals me to come near her, stand close to her and connect, or simply place my forehead to hers in deep recognition, these moments are glorious for me. Back in the barn we had one of these moments, she sent the image across of me hugging her around the neck so I oblidged. My heart burst into expanse at the gesture and I felt like a child being mothered. There is no greater experience than acting in response to having truly listened to someone. The alignment is out of this world.

She showed me this.

Once we were back in the barn I noticed Florenzo was in a DEEP state of either meditation or universal travel. He was completely ‘gone’. Latina was stood behind him also in ‘state’. Toby right at the back of the barn, in stillness but more here than the others.

Drawing closer to Florenzo I began brushing him to which he threw me an extremely irritated glare. There was something in the air which I was not hearing but could feel, a message which I was skirting around but not touching. Aware of the ‘time’ and wanting to get them out to the field again I moved away from Flo to brush Latina and Toby, whilst I was doing this I did something I used to do a lot when we were living in Hampshire. I asked the Angels who protect to place balls of protection and healing around each of the horses. Allowing each horse to draw into their auric field anything they specifically needed at any time, in any way. An infinite Angelic ball of light essentially. That is how I have always seen it anyway. Today though it was different. As I began the process I felt a real incongruency, or ‘itch’ away from what I was doing. Something just wasn’t sitting right. So I stopped, looked into what it was and the words ‘Healing Geometric Grid’ appeared. The balls of infinite healing I had previously imagined around the horses had now become VERY specific Geometric Patterned Grids. As soon as I saw and felt these grids I took a huge deep breathe and knew that was the truth. These horses had drawn in, set up, and were resting INSIDE healing Grids.

Florenzo had previously mentioned Sacred Geometry and Healing Grids before. Explaining how they heal, Healing Grids, he has mentioned this A LOT actually. I have various different notes about this in the notebook I take with me when I go and sit with them in the field. This time it was more evident to me because rather than writing it down as a concept I actually was guided INTO the energy of what he was talking about. It was as though my conecpt of a healing circle was outdated and what they were showing me was a very big upgrade!

When the horses communicate something collectively to me there is a re-aligning which happens. Whereby any pervious ideas of mine tend to get realigned too. As though we are all going through an ‘upgrade’ is the best way for me to describe it. This can be very ‘broad’ or very ‘finite’ it doesnt really matter and is not important except in terms of explaining the different threads of energy which they are able to inherently transmit and remind us of. It is like everything shifts from one frequency to another, from one version to another, from one reality to another. Then in the new place there is new everything, nothing existed before that place or after. It is like the eternal OM or the eternal Samadhi or the eternal-ness of space inside us. A shifting of reality, moment upon moment.

Become all things as a matter of medicine

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These past 10 days have been a real dark night of the soul for me. Cascading through fits of fear I had not realsed were possible for me to handle. Breaking boundaries of what I perceive to be ‘real’ and leaping into new realms.

There really is no limit to this type of personal unfolding. Something I said to a friend of mine last night was that I feel there is no beginning and no end to the recognition of who we are. It is boundless, literally. I mean this in the most productive way that I can mean it. Our Unconscious mind will only present information and / or experience to us when we are ready to receive and process it, allowing integration to actually be a very kind (albeit totally shattering at times) way of becoming (or feeling) more whole. Five years ago I chose to dive straight down and deep into my own inner shadow; with the intention to know myself at a deeper level. The journey has been as harrowing as it has been awakening, today I sit writing these words as a completely different person. So many nuances, habits, beliefs, perceptions, choices, overall energetic patterns, and even physical alignments have shifted, because of my choice to show up more fully on this planet. I behave differently because I now function from an evolving perspective of what Love is and WHO I am. Even right in the midst of unfurling fear I still somehow KNOW I have a choice. The truth is present there, I see that there is no separation between what I am going through and the rest of the world around me. How any suffering I experience is also the suffering of the world, any joy I experience is also the joy of the world. We are ALL this way! Collectively there can be no separation. The sooner and the deeper we all begin to adopt this perspective of Oneness the more we can begin integrating parts of ourselves which NEED to be heard. Diving into my own personal processes helps me connect to others in the best way that I can. Helps me Love others because of the merging of what I am going through! Acknowledging the shadow and the light within ME helps me acknowledge the shadow AND light in the world, in every person, in every animal, in ALL beings. I am not saying it is easy, I am saying that there is beauty in the challenge of coming home again.

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Ultimately my choice is always the same; love, in all it’s different forms.

As I entered what my horses have been calling the ‘Inner Void’ this past week I saw all the things I had not seen, saw all the things I knew were right for me. I know I will succumb again to the calling of my eternal space within. To wake up in that space, where all things are known, unknown, and loved.

I also came to know my body on a deeper level. Came to so many clear understandings of how it helps us heal. In this way these words appeared:

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Recover the ways of your nature, become all things as a matter of medicine.

Your physical body is a gateway, a precipice on which all things are known and unknown. Only the experience that passes through this doorway into the eternal You is what is perceived as truth. For in One breathe you are the edge, the opening and the infinite. Containing it’s own vast consciousness your body shifts frequency based on what you call in in this Conscious and Unconscious way you have.

Our physical bodies house it ALL. Every-Thing. Nothing escapes its knowledge of who you truly are. It is awake to you, it sees you moment by moment in your entirety.

Step inside it now, see for yourself how much has been waiting to dance again.

Every portrait you ever created of who you thought you were is present there……and all the rest.

Bear witness to the power which your body IS. Respect it.. Know that you have chosen it for a reason, all the pain and bliss in the world is felt here. Nowhere else. THROUGH the consciousness of your form you are then less than that as you climb up to emerge through the portal of awakening again.

And in it’s centre….. Space.

Every cell, every particle, every organ…. Space. More space than we can possibly ‘IMAGINE’. This vastness knows only your feeling look.

Lean into it when you can. Lay your head down to rest upon the timelessness of realisation. Surrender into you. ~~

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Art of the Forest

In the fabric of such a notion as reality can the play of life ever cease?

Or is it us who open a doorway to the New Age?

Let the ego sleep its restless will

Cornering emotion the rising flow of healing’s devotion

Weep not for in its nature is the teaching.

Who are you who sees behind the lake house of silent awareness?

Who are you who seeks. Who meets life in full flight again and again.

Creaking bark and the tethered stark of dawn lit leaves.

Now smell the sweet pine as it adventures through you. Weaving in the pulsing beat of your own melodic composure.

Again let the ego rest its tired head upon the chest of my truth. Come into the embrace you long for, notice it all around you.

Lay the ego down to rest now and trust the family of your Soul.

Hear my voice in the shadows you speak from. Unzip any armour and be laid bear upon the sands of the present.

Let my shores crash over you, the cleansing salts of your truth being witnessed once more. Allow this. Allow this.

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Falling into Being

Cascading down the line of fine infinite potential we witnessed the harshness and the gentle caress of a storms wings upon our faces. Swirling, curving our way we opened slowly but surely seeing the horizon we have all harboured inside ourselves.

What a taken solace it is to glance upwards and remember who we are. Who each person is and to gain momentum in our perspective of that such thing. When I do my best to look into the fulcrum point of this inner temple, I see one thing. A complete harmonious fluid structure of caring of sharing and of creation. In our creation the light will come forward and save our world that doesn’t need saving. It is us who are the savers and the saved the cautious and the brave the witness and the subject of a continuous unfolding.

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Our Beautiful Horses!

They come and they stay

Sometimes they remain in a way which touches our hearts and opens a new path.

Yet how often do we ask how they feel about the roles they play?

Is there a way for us to go deeper? To BE deeper for them?

To know how their inner worlds work.

How their life outside the saddle fits into perfect harmony with the sanctuary of our shared hearts?

Over time there has been a surrendering, a fore going of their independence so that we may live together.

With more time we will reach a rememberance of how in our ‘difference’ there is unity.

A merging of intention, of wellness and peace to co-create with the other’s fate in mind!

This is my mission, my calling and vision, to create a world in which the unity we see is the truth we believe about ourselves and our horses

Who share their every breathe on this Earth so that we may come to know more of what it is to be an animal filled with such a strong Spirit.

When there is a way there is a tunnel which funnels underneath the surface structures we keep so preciously present

As though there can be no tenant without them!

What if the way was different and our urge to connect came forth to express our truth of the matter

Which is that when we choose to shatter our paradigm of seeing we can start believing in the new and the now

The depth and joy of the days we allow ourselves to fill up with connection and play.

Oh how I love the first morning break of the sun as it shines upon the faces of my Divine family – the working horses on this planet are giving so much! Over stumbling rocks they tremble and push as they submiss to the wills of man’s handling skills all in an effort to live and they continue to give!

Are we and our animals the same?

Are we each our own mirror of wonder

To keep searching in for a way under and through the outdated?

Where we ourselves can then become un-gated and free to live from the heart once more, a home coming of familiarity is re-born.

That sacred ground where Horse and Human are both found, living together in harmony and FULL recognition of the Spirit in the ‘other’.

The mirror becomes the Great Mother’s way of showing that unconditional love is not as tough as we may have thought but actually gives life to form.

How can we find more space in our two Soul’s Grace?

Can there be a new way for us to integrate and have more faith in the other?

To listen

To trust

To go deep and start shifting the pain and the grief?

To weep in the light of a new dawn and open wide to the reality of what can be born?

As our horses have spent generations giving

Let us invest the time and have faith

Even for a moment a day

To give to them from our Heart.

From the space which houses our infinity

……..and where Love is the creator’s hand.

What is TRUE unity?

 

True unity is the product of absolute validation of all of the individual differences between us, as each piece of a puzzle has to be a certain shape in order to connect with the other pieces around it to create ‘the whole’. As are we. When we stand in our truth and validate who we are in our uniqueness we actually see that this individuation is part of what MAKES us that already perfect fit. When we begin to create a sense of peace with our choices, our voices and our ‘way’, we can also acknowledge and be grateful for the way of others, CARE about the way of others, and ultimately help paint a new state of self-recognition, thus encompassing a larger whole through the perspective of the One part.