Be the safest place

Over the last week and a half I have been working with Toby on his own away from the others. It was a calling to connect with him at a deeper level. To let him know that I will do everything in my capability to create a space of love for him to be in. What this also means is me being hyper aware of many different personal elements too, for example: Where my energy is, where my thoughts are, what my focus is applied to. As much as I want to let him know he is safe with me he is already acutely aware of where my energy so it actually has to be a two-fold experience because we are sharing space.

Day 1 and 2 were all about listening to each other. Going through the waves of Toby being away from the herd and me being open to acknowledging his needs free of conditions.

Day 3 he moved towards me. The current of energy between us had shifted into a more productive, action orientated frequency. We spent time focussing on the physical aspect of being together. Ground work, flexion, stretching etc. I wanted to really show him how much I care about him, how I am prepared to LISTEN to what he needs. At the end of day 3 we stood together, falling into a deep state of silence. Expanding through the vastness of space in each of our beings. Our bodies holding steady whilst the flow of experience unfurled.

Time dissolved as all I knew was his eye, his presence, his message. Here in this place where all things merge into the known and unknown – here I felt at home again.

As we stood in this way I became aware of all things. The depth of where we had expanded into and the physical dimension as well. Feeling my feet on the ground whilst simultaneously experiencing the infinite vastness of where we were. The bifold way of being.

The following days with Toby have been an advancement of physical and energetic connection in this way. Focussing on the groundwork and then entering DEEP space together.

Our relationship has changed completely. Where I felt he was so attached to the others to the point of neediness and insecurity he has now begun to adopt much more confidence, he feels much happier away from the herd and his energy is different too. Now, as soon as we see each other there is a connection. The foundation has been laid for both of us to grow from in that ‘togetherness’ which the horses had been repeatedly telling me to tap into.

Their bond is solid, the herd bond is something I am currently stepping INTO, it is not something I feel I am yet a part of to the degree I want to be. Through this connecting however, all things are possible. Entering such a deep space of ‘seeing’ with each other, a new fibre is created. One of assurance. My message of commitment to him has been heard.

We now ‘know’ each other on a different level.

As people, where can we know each other on a deeper level? Where can we hold space for authenticity to thrive?
There isn’t just one way of being in this world. We have the ability to flex the muscles of inner arrangement to the point of CREATING compatibility by virtue of our intention to do so. What if we called to those places in our lives where we know more sharing can be had. More truth. More depth. More MEANING. We are all on the same boat moving towards a destination which exists because of our power to create it in the first place.

Focus on LOVE

Something that has been coming through from my horses recently is to be hyper aware of where my and ultimately ‘our’ focus IS, right now.

Life can seem very complex, in fact it IS complex. There are so many different ways we can function. Our mental capacity is multidimensional in its ability to split, open, frame, and create somehow all within the fractal of a moment. For those of you who have experienced the deep state of ‘Samadhi’ during mediation, or that somatic wave of joy whilst exploring the divinity of Mother Nature, you will have perhaps noticed what it feels like once our minds ‘turn back on’ or come back into the realm of ‘reality’ as we then come to know it. It can feel like a vast comparison to the ’emptiness’ of state we have experienced.

This mental stream is of course equally as valuable and when cultivated with awareness it can actually be one of your driving forces of authentic strength creation.

Collectively on the planet we are in a huge time of change, all over the globe we can see shifts in perspective arising, voices calling out, hearts expanding and moving into action, truths singing LOUD. There is A LOT of flux right now!

The time to recognise how powerful our focused intention really is is upon us. Use this extra special opening to notice where YOUR focus is. We can also use this time to ask ~ Where is my INNER flux at this time? How am I either changing now or in a tidal wave of capacity to do so?

Holding space for your focus to be known is important because you are in fact a microcosmic force within a vast network of collective outcomes. You literally ARE the living key to your own becoming. Where your thoughts are directing you is vital as it is where you will find yourself in some shape or form.

What I have noticed recently about the way my own mind behaves is that it is extremely well designed in the sense that it can, of its own accord, take me on a journey with a destination so far away from my original start point. It sometimes feels like ‘it’ is the driver, yet the larger aspect of my awareness knows that all things are actually in inextricable balance and can only come out of that play by virtue of my own choice on some level. Therefore there is no part of me which is not experiencing exactly what it is meant to in perfect accordance with my own development.

Using all our given traits as Human beings. Our thoughts, our feelings, our physical body, our intentional self, our etheric form; this is one of the many different elements to why we are here. To utilise ALL of ourselves IN the dynamic of Love. In conjunction with this there is no point in pushing away our thoughts or denying our emotions the freedom to be expressed, all of these elements exist in tandem with WHO YOU ARE. Honing your focus into Love does not mean denying the other feelings, it simply means going through your own personal process to reach a point where you realise that it always already exists within you, and can be called upon!

You cannot escape your nature, and your focus truly IS a spark in this world.

So as the horses are guiding – be available for WHATEVER YOU NEED TO EXPERIENCE with the intention to ultimately bring your focus onto Love, a Love that is waiting with open arms, that constant embrace. May it be a case of simply recognising what is already present within so that we may be conscious creators in this world again and again.

What is TRUE unity?

True unity is the product of absolute validation of all of the individual differences between us, as each piece of a puzzle has to be a certain shape in order to connect with the other pieces around it to create ‘the whole’. As are we. When we stand in our truth and validate who we are in our uniqueness we actually see that this individuation is part of what MAKES us that already perfect fit. When we begin to create a sense of peace with our choices, our voices and our ‘way’, we can also acknowledge and be grateful for the way of others, CARE about the way of others, and ultimately help paint a new state of self-recognition, thus encompassing a larger whole through the perspective of the One part.

Mending my relationship with my body

Over time many things have drawn me towards seeking revival in knowledge about my physical body. Through different Craniosacral Trainings, Reiki, Advanced Healing, Shamanic Journeying, and my own deep inner work which I have done for what feels like 13 years, through all of these different modalities and avenues of exploration I feel that my body has had A LOT to say. Some of which I kept hidden away and some I listened to. It’s the listening which holds the healing for me. Truly.

My relationship with my body has always been turbulent, from a very young age I found the act of actually being IN my body challenging, even though from where I am sitting now I can see that it has been a total blessing as I navigated my way through this world it was my body which housed me. It was my body which enabled me to do things like run through the fields towards the horses, ride, jump, climb, swim and sit in my favourite newly found spots upon this Earth.

Sometimes it is very easy to think about where we are right now, what feels right right now and then it is also important to remember a time when we felt very different so that we can bring our consciousness into the unfolding nature of our truth. We are always changing, always playing and merging reforming and moulding again into new ways of being. I have been through this, I know it to be part of MY truth. I want to know what your’s is too.

Our physical bodies are our vessels of light, literally. The photons in our body are emitting light all of the time, the amount of light fluctuates with our energetic metabolism, mood, frequency, thoughts, how well we take care of ourselves etc.

And so we ARE light. Already. What we need to do to make sure we shine is to begin thinking of ways to expand this light. To expand ourselves.

There is healing to be found in the physical body, always. Not only are we carrying the memories of our forefathers and mothers in our DNA but also we have literally chosen our particular physical forms to inhabit for a reason, and this reason is always Love.

The journey of coming back to Loving ourselves on a physical level can be deep and feel long but I PROMISE you the more you curve your focus into expanding your light inwards to discover those nooks and crannies of your bodies make up you will have so many benefits showered upon you!

Poem from my body to my soul ~

In many ways you used to cull me – to cut me off and create havoc in me.

How I used to want to breathe you forward and kiss your face, helping you see that all was well because we are together, because we have created a world within worlds as One.

Remembering yourself was difficult, not because of me but because of We. Our light is bright but no-one could see, how can we help people if we shut off our own precious centre of guidance?

Through sunrise and sunset we gained strength but what of the heart? Our centrepiece. What of the still existence of all things inside this home. We are here as One, we return to One and we are made from One. Come now into the light and be seen again Woman for you are magnificent and you are holy, you are right and you are your own sovereign. Transfer the question of why to the reality of because, because we are here, because we have chosen and because we exist! Exist unto yourself and shine forth in this way so that others can see your face in the heart of all things. Your heart in the words you say, the moves you paint and the dance which echoes again and again through your bones. You are one with the world Dilara. You are one with the light.

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