Focus on LOVE

Something that has been coming through from my horses recently is to be hyper aware of where my and ultimately ‘our’ focus IS, right now.

Life can seem very complex, in fact it IS complex. There are so many different ways we can function. Our mental capacity is multidimensional in its ability to split, open, frame, and create somehow all within the fractal of a moment. For those of you who have experienced the deep state of ‘Samadhi’ during mediation, or that somatic wave of joy whilst exploring the divinity of Mother Nature, you will have perhaps noticed what it feels like once our minds ‘turn back on’ or come back into the realm of ‘reality’ as we then come to know it. It can feel like a vast comparison to the ’emptiness’ of state we have experienced.

This mental stream is of course equally as valuable and when cultivated with awareness it can actually be one of your driving forces of authentic strength creation.

Collectively on the planet we are in a huge time of change, all over the globe we can see shifts in perspective arising, voices calling out, hearts expanding and moving into action, truths singing LOUD. There is A LOT of flux right now!

The time to recognise how powerful our focused intention really is is upon us. Use this extra special opening to notice where YOUR focus is. We can also use this time to ask ~ Where is my INNER flux at this time? How am I either changing now or in a tidal wave of capacity to do so?

Holding space for your focus to be known is important because you are in fact a microcosmic force within a vast network of collective outcomes. You literally ARE the living key to your own becoming. Where your thoughts are directing you is vital as it is where you will find yourself in some shape or form.

What I have noticed recently about the way my own mind behaves is that it is extremely well designed in the sense that it can, of its own accord, take me on a journey with a destination so far away from my original start point. It sometimes feels like ‘it’ is the driver, yet the larger aspect of my awareness knows that all things are actually in inextricable balance and can only come out of that play by virtue of my own choice on some level. Therefore there is no part of me which is not experiencing exactly what it is meant to in perfect accordance with my own development.

Using all our given traits as Human beings. Our thoughts, our feelings, our physical body, our intentional self, our etheric form; this is one of the many different elements to why we are here. To utilise ALL of ourselves IN the dynamic of Love. In conjunction with this there is no point in pushing away our thoughts or denying our emotions the freedom to be expressed, all of these elements exist in tandem with WHO YOU ARE. Honing your focus into Love does not mean denying the other feelings, it simply means going through your own personal process to reach a point where you realise that it always already exists within you, and can be called upon!

You cannot escape your nature, and your focus truly IS a spark in this world.

So as the horses are guiding – be available for WHATEVER YOU NEED TO EXPERIENCE with the intention to ultimately bring your focus onto Love, a Love that is waiting with open arms, that constant embrace. May it be a case of simply recognising what is already present within so that we may be conscious creators in this world again and again.

Empaths and Horses

Horses are prey animals. What this means is that their ability to tune into their environment is one the most safe guard giving abilities they have. As I watch my horses I notice their DISTINCT capacity to tune into Mother Nature, it is quite extraordinary!
Now, for those of you who do not know; an Empath is a person who is also highly attuned to THEIR environment. This includes people, places, animals, scenarios, events, food and anything else you can think of that we come to meet in our day to day lives. Many people associate someone who is empathic to being ‘extra sensitive’, emotionally, physically etc to other people. However being an Empath essentially means that your sensitivity not just to the people in your world but also your WHOLE world is of an ACUTE degree. It is my personal belief that we actually ALL have empathic abilities once we turn them to ‘on’ enough to allow them to flow again.

When I was a child my abilities meant that the world actually seemed like a very scary place, intense, powerful, and in constant need of a type of navigation I just did not feel that I had at the time. So, like many people who are this sensitive I shut it all down. I said ‘no’ to the intensity and ‘yes’ to what I believed at the time
was an ‘easier’ way of functioning.

However as my world and work with animals continues to deepen the tides have changed. The sensitive nature of MY being I have discovered is in direct proportion to the sensitive essence and necessity of existence in the Horses (this includes Dogs as well however I will write more about them another time). They rely on being ‘Empathic’ with the world around them, including each other of course, in order to function in a harmonised way. The power of how present they are is at times even alarming to me as it brings into direct contrast how delicate the ‘nature of the beast’ truly is. And how truly valuable ones sensitive abilities ARE!

I watch them send ‘invisible’ messages to one another in such subtly that it takes a certain type of etheric or invisible nature in myself to witness. Every day I am held with the lesson of how to BE more like them in order to SEE at a deeper level what they are saying, and ultimately portraying as animals who have roamed with us for thousands of years.
I invite you to ask yourself on a daily basis – ‘Where do my sensitivies lie?’ ‘How can I become more attuned to my world so that I can see, hear, and feel at a much more profound level if needs be?’ ‘How can I become more attuned to my environment, with awareness and grace?’

Also ask ‘How do I currently feel about ‘being sensitive’ in general?’

In order to tune into our Horses from a different level it is important that we access the dimensions within us which are a match to theirs. That we also ride the wave of how THEY do things so that how we do things becomes much more complete, together.

Translating this out into the human world; we interact with people EVERYDAY. Even if you are taking a solo retreat out in nature away from the MASSES you still EXIST in an environment which is contributed to by many many others. As the Horses do so can we. Their hearing, seeing, sensing, all knowing vibe is as fully incarnate as our primal instincts as humans are. And yet our capacity to be both Prey and Predator is of equal stature. Tune into your world today, see what you pick up / feel / know. Trust it and KNOW that it is TRUTH.

What is Giving?

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There is something happening with the love of the world right now. The other day I wrote about love and how one of the hardest things for me was to actually give love, to get into the energy of giving. It had always been a scary thing for me, to open my heart and just GIVE, freely to those around me. I always pulled back from it with a vengence as though the safest thing on Earth I could do was to cover away, to hide and to not BE in my own giving energy. It would not be true to say that one thing changed this for me, as many tunings have unfolded and I have dived deep into my being more than a few times to really feel into what is happening in there, however there was one DEFINING moment in which I remember very clearly feeling hugely open to the power of giving. Wathcing Bridget Nielsen (whose work I love) speak about the 5^th Dimensional vibration of ‘Service to others’ completely shook up something in me, a subtle yet powerful opening to a world I had avoided for a long time. Giving to others from my heart. It resonated so so deeply.
My sense is that all of the Unconditonal Love in the world lives right inside us, in our hearts, in our beings.
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There seemed to be a restriction inside me which I hadn’t been able to or wanted to shake off, the moment I turned my focus from doing my best to control this feeling to being of service to others everything changed. I felt an instant wave of relief run through me and honestly, my world suddenly made a lot more sense. There is something very powerful happening in my / the world right now which is guiding me forward into a state of absolute giving, in which my heart opens to share it’s light with the whole world. Simply, wholly and also because I KNOW that we all have this love within us so in this way I feel that I am giving and simultaneously sharing the love with every soul on the planet.

And as synchronicity has it’s own art form….this follows……

Yesterday I drove to Glastonbury (Avalon) for the sunrise. Later on in the day I lay on top of the Tor, belly to the Earth and sent my focus inwards. Inside myself and also into the womb of that place. Holding the inner structures of the Tor in my minds eye. I felt my etheric body pulsing with life in partnership with the energy of the Tor and surrounding lands. It was a completely unified wave. As I surrendered into this I was suddenly transported back to a childhood dream – when I was young I would pray every night for the Earth to be protected and for all beings to feel loved. Even from the age of 3 years old this was already hugely important to me and became a very organic expression of my desire to give.

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What I also saw / felt on top the Tor was the truth that ‘All is within us’. The space inside the cells of your body is not ‘empty’! It is our infinite potential. The infinite potential of anything we put our focus onto!
Your awareness is a light, and as you light up the darkness inside – aka – your internal space within, you are lighting up your desires, you are lighting up your very BEING because everything can be seen when we choose to hold it in the light of our awareness.
Whilst in this space I decided to re-birth that childhood intention – I saw all the beings on Earth illuminated in white light, filled with Love, in total knowing of their completeness. I felt a huge shift in my whole body as the energy of this thought rippled through me and out to the world. The emotion which surfaced alongside this was just PURE BLISS. Putting the feeling into words would not work. I cried and cried with gratitude at what an amazing life I have been blessed with.
I realised that this PURE frequency of gratitude is not attached to what you HAVE but is a by-product of who you are becoming, and actually already ARE inside.
It is a vibration which completely bowls me over and humbles me to my core every time.
What I came to terms with from this space was that ‘THIS IS GIVING.’ It is in the giving that we truly receive. My heart’s desire for all beings to feel Unconditionally Loved and filled with light was ignited within my own body as I am also, of course, one of those beings. The world we see around us is a mirror, and what we put out we get back – truly – it is a simple universal truth which is undeniable in it’s raw capacity to help us remember again and again who we truly are.
For me giving is following your heart’s deepest desire, embracing it and then sharing it FULLY and UNAPOLOGETICALLY with the world. In whatever way. There is no formula, there are no rules, this is the truth of who you are and the entire world needs to see it!

The Light in our Freedom

As my time with the animals in my life has developed, along with own personal consciousness we have arrived at a rather lovely scenario of shared intention.

Every day when I leave the horses for the evening I ask myself ‘ How do I want the horses to feel? ‘

The answer to this question has, like all things, evolved. However for the past few months the answer is always the same – I want my horses to feel –

‘Unconditionally Loved. With the highest possible outcome in mind, may they feel that they are capable of achieving whatever their Heart’s Desire is. Held in a space of absolute potential and Divine Love.’

This may sounds strange to some. The horse’s ‘Heart’s Desire’, but I believe that all beings are on a trajectory of intentional creation. Whether that is on an energetic or physical level. All beings have an emotive transparency which they emit constantly, how much we are aware of this is the question I have asked myself MANY times. ‘How much am I listening?’ ‘How can I hear more clearly the voice of this Heart space between us.’

Thus the intentional light I choose to hold my horses in is one of expansion and of unfolding into their Heart’s Desires. My duty is to show up for them in a way which translates desire to outcome if needs be.

Now from the perspective of all things being One there is of course an intertwining with my own sense of feeling free. The intention for my horses stems from one of my deepest intentions for myself. To feel completely unbound by pressure and to roam inside the present moment with my sense of self wholly celebrated.

Many times I have felt the wires of my own integrity cross with those of our cultural belief systems. Seeking something which my mind told me was outside the ‘norm’. Holding myself back because of a generic idea of what ‘being acceptable’ is. The shift came the moment I saw I was the one applying pressure as much as I was the one feeling pressurized. There was no visible or attainable external force, it was a battle waged on the inside. Slowly I began to unravel the chains of expectation I had created as a byproduct of societal structure. I began feeling into the new world of being present with ME rather than chasing an unattainable ‘idea’ which morphs out of view as soon as you come close. The ultimate mirage.

Being able to be WHOEVER WE WANT TO BE. This is freedom for me. Not the action itself but the FEELING. Because once we are in that state the action of genuine authentic speech, thoughts and connection become second nature. Condition free.

Being whoever I want to be – what does this look like? If I was to explain it to someone who may have a completely different sense for what that is what would I say?

Feeling free means that ALWAYS, under ALL circumstances, with ALL people, things and in all places – putting your own truth first, and arriving at a place where this is your HIGHEST option taken. Where YOUR voice matters because you have come to terms with what it sounds like. Where who you actually ARE in that moment is far more important than anything else.

There are many different roads you can take towards living in your Heart as a dedication to loving yourself more. Whether it is freedom, raising your voice, being seen, being heard, attending to your world with humility, unbinding yourself from the past to live more fully in bond with the NOW, the path itself will ultimately create a MUCH deeper sense of recognising who you are.

As I sit here in deep reflection upon the intricate web of life and all things included, I set my intention for the day:

‘That the highest possible option may come to pass for all beings, and may the unity of our hearts ring true with what freedom looks like on an individual and collective level.’

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What is TRUE unity?

True unity is the product of absolute validation of all of the individual differences between us, as each piece of a puzzle has to be a certain shape in order to connect with the other pieces around it to create ‘the whole’. As are we. When we stand in our truth and validate who we are in our uniqueness we actually see that this individuation is part of what MAKES us that already perfect fit. When we begin to create a sense of peace with our choices, our voices and our ‘way’, we can also acknowledge and be grateful for the way of others, CARE about the way of others, and ultimately help paint a new state of self-recognition, thus encompassing a larger whole through the perspective of the One part.

Mending my relationship with my body

Over time many things have drawn me towards seeking revival in knowledge about my physical body. Through different Craniosacral Trainings, Reiki, Advanced Healing, Shamanic Journeying, and my own deep inner work which I have done for what feels like 13 years, through all of these different modalities and avenues of exploration I feel that my body has had A LOT to say. Some of which I kept hidden away and some I listened to. It’s the listening which holds the healing for me. Truly.

My relationship with my body has always been turbulent, from a very young age I found the act of actually being IN my body challenging, even though from where I am sitting now I can see that it has been a total blessing as I navigated my way through this world it was my body which housed me. It was my body which enabled me to do things like run through the fields towards the horses, ride, jump, climb, swim and sit in my favourite newly found spots upon this Earth.

Sometimes it is very easy to think about where we are right now, what feels right right now and then it is also important to remember a time when we felt very different so that we can bring our consciousness into the unfolding nature of our truth. We are always changing, always playing and merging reforming and moulding again into new ways of being. I have been through this, I know it to be part of MY truth. I want to know what your’s is too.

Our physical bodies are our vessels of light, literally. The photons in our body are emitting light all of the time, the amount of light fluctuates with our energetic metabolism, mood, frequency, thoughts, how well we take care of ourselves etc.

And so we ARE light. Already. What we need to do to make sure we shine is to begin thinking of ways to expand this light. To expand ourselves.

There is healing to be found in the physical body, always. Not only are we carrying the memories of our forefathers and mothers in our DNA but also we have literally chosen our particular physical forms to inhabit for a reason, and this reason is always Love.

The journey of coming back to Loving ourselves on a physical level can be deep and feel long but I PROMISE you the more you curve your focus into expanding your light inwards to discover those nooks and crannies of your bodies make up you will have so many benefits showered upon you!

Poem from my body to my soul ~

In many ways you used to cull me – to cut me off and create havoc in me.

How I used to want to breathe you forward and kiss your face, helping you see that all was well because we are together, because we have created a world within worlds as One.

Remembering yourself was difficult, not because of me but because of We. Our light is bright but no-one could see, how can we help people if we shut off our own precious centre of guidance?

Through sunrise and sunset we gained strength but what of the heart? Our centrepiece. What of the still existence of all things inside this home. We are here as One, we return to One and we are made from One. Come now into the light and be seen again Woman for you are magnificent and you are holy, you are right and you are your own sovereign. Transfer the question of why to the reality of because, because we are here, because we have chosen and because we exist! Exist unto yourself and shine forth in this way so that others can see your face in the heart of all things. Your heart in the words you say, the moves you paint and the dance which echoes again and again through your bones. You are one with the world Dilara. You are one with the light.

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